American Valorant pro player Jay "Sinatraa" Won has been accused of sexual violence by his former girlfriend, Cleo 'cle0h' Hernandez, in a nine-page public document published and posted on Tuesday, March 9.
In her document titled simply "j" recounting the abuse, Hernandez alleged that Sinatraa subjected her to sexual and emotional abuse to the point of terror—claiming that he ignored her saying no "countless times" and consistently ignored the pain he put her in for his own benefit.
"I learned that he didn't mind hurting me and had no problem with leaving me crying in the bathroom while he slept," she wrote, "I went to the doctor for this to try and solve it because I knew he wasn't going to just magically stop...He knew it hurt badly enough for me to go to the doctor...He can't try and say that he just didn't know. He knew."
Sinatraa Accused of Sexual Abuse by Former Girlfriend
Hernandez noted several instances in which Sinatraa objectively ignored her attempts to resist his advances. Rejection resulted in him throwing "a fit" and accusing her of cheating on him or no longer being in love with him. When she "learned that saying no to sex was not an option," she resorted to physical excuses with limited success.
"Anything so that I didn't have to," she explained, "I'd try to say no and he'd just push himself on me anyways."
"Towards the end I did just let him do what he wanted and wait until it was done and sit in the shower in pain...It just wasn't worth the fight after a while when it was obvious stopping wasn't possible," she wrote.
Hernandez went on to attach a litany of evidence to support her claims from audio to video, text messages, and everything in between. She even went as far as to transcribe a clip portraying her exact statement in which she repeatedly says no despite Sinatraa still pursuing her.
According to her, Sinatraa used to check her location and use that to levy additional accusations of infidelity—which Hernandez attached message screenshots of such an event as proof to further validate her recounting of his insecurity. This allegedly extended to off-hand comments she made on social media as she additionally attached screenshots of an argument that was the result of a tweet backhandedly praising a rival Overwatch League team, the Houston Outlaws.
Hernandez closed the document by debunking claims by both Sinatraa and his current girlfriend. She denied that she would use her mental health to control him or that her accusations stem from her being a "disgruntled" ex-partner—the latter of which was supported by dated Discord logs from well before their official break-up.
She also denied any ill will toward his current girlfriend, writing, "I'm worried about her, I don't hate her. If he treats her anything like he treated me I'm genuinely quite worried for her...She believes her boyfriend and there's nothing wrong with that...Jay made me out to be this awful person."
"Until now no one knew that he wasn't this incredible person that he pretends to be...He didn't stop being toxic, he just moved on from bullying kids in a game to putting down someone who loved and supported him. Everyone used to know how toxic he was...If you knew that kid then this shouldn't come as a surprise to you," she wrote.
Despite everything, Hernandez has done her best to move forward. She has been a frequent visitor to sexual assault hotlines, spoken in anonymous groups for survivors, and "spent over a year of [her] life in therapy" to heal.
Some scars, however, may never fade, as she explained, "I've had to give up interests and loves in an attempt to not see his face or hear his voice...Had nightmares about it, and countless nights where I lay in bed and wonder what I did to deserve what he did to me."
"What he did to me will never, ever change," she continued, "Don't try to tell me I'm ruining his reputation. I'm making it more accurate."
If this situation sounds familiar to you or anyone you know, we encourage you to reach out for help. The trained staff at both National Sexual Violence Resource Center (NSVRC), the Rape, Abuse & Incest National Network (RAINN), and survivor-led The Network la Red and are ready and willing to provide resources in any capacity.
There has been no comment from Sinatraa, the Sentinels, or the San Francisco Shock regarding these allegations at the time of writing.